Yesterday was a strange day to be honest. I was feeling good; I started writing this blog, putting my feelings out there, trying to tell my story, so others can maybe be inspired by it. All along I thought what I was going through was tough; and it is, don't get me wrong. But then, right after I finished posting my last entry yesterday, I got an alert on my phone with the news out of Connecticut. It all just stopped and didn't know what to think, write, say or even feel. Here I was, sitting at my desk writing my feelings about what I was going through, how tough it was and how it was making me a better person. All of the sudden it all went away. Immediately, I felt weird, I felt like what I was going through was irrelevant. Events like this one have the power of putting things in perspective. Just when we think we have it bad, something like this happens and it makes us realize that we are really so lucky.
We all go through incredibly painful situations during our lives and I feel like I am living one of those. But that does not even begin to compare to what these families are going through right now. I couldn't even tell you what it feels like, I have no clue. But I feel now that what I am going through is not that bad. Don't get me wrong, I still hurt, a lot, and I still need to get my shit together! But I haven't lost someone to the hands of evil; well maybe, but not yet. These parents will never see their children again, and that, to be honest, is just not fair. I have a 20 months old nephew who means the world to me, really does. I couldn't even imagine how I would feel had he been in that classroom; I couldn't even begin to tell you how his parents would feel.
My mom once told me that a parent should never outlive her kids, and I couldn't agree more. The love one has for a child is incomparable to anything else in this world. Children do change us, they change us as people, as human beings, they make us better people, they teach us that we are no longer the priority, that they always will come first. Children are an amazing gift, and yes, I mean a gift, a true gift, and I pray for all those children out there who don't feel as if they are such. It is unfair for children to grow up unloved, however, it is sometimes those children who emerge the strongest of all. It goes back to what I said yesterday, never ever let anything define you as a person, always use the experiences you go through and your memories and define yourselves. Willpower and determination will get anyone there, trust me, I am living it now. Nothing good in life is easy and this is no exception; if you want something good, you are going to have to fight for it, just think of Black Friday! If it seems too easy, then it's probably not worth your time. We sometimes have to be stronger than any bad memory we have. We need to show ourselves who is boss. We can't let our emotions control us, as sometimes, the heart and the soul can be the greatest devil of all. We need to learn to put things in perspective, to rationalize what it is that our thoughts mean, what our feelings mean. It is during times like these, when tragedies of this magnitude happen, that we realize who those people are, that we need by our sides.
This has really showed me how much I really love my wife; I don't know what I would do if something was to happen to her; yes even when we are going through this. We need to realize that no matter how bad we think we have it, there will always be a child out there sleeping on the streets, hungry and cold; there will always be a family burying their child. We need to understand that if these children and families can get up and go about their day, we should be able to emerge from our somewhat "bad" experiences, much easier. Never forget that the mind is the greatest tool humans have. Nothing is ever too hard; if we sit down and think of all those people who are grieving the loss of their children today, we will realize that, after all, we have it pretty good. Our problems are marginal compared to what happened yesterday and these unfortunate events sometimes help us see how good we have it and how much we should try to hold on to what we have. I pray for all those families in CT and I won't say I know what they are going through, because I don't, and not many people do. But this has shown me who those people are who really matter in my life. Make sure you always tell those people in your life, "I love you"; you just never know if that will be the last time you ever talk to them.
We all go through incredibly painful situations during our lives and I feel like I am living one of those. But that does not even begin to compare to what these families are going through right now. I couldn't even tell you what it feels like, I have no clue. But I feel now that what I am going through is not that bad. Don't get me wrong, I still hurt, a lot, and I still need to get my shit together! But I haven't lost someone to the hands of evil; well maybe, but not yet. These parents will never see their children again, and that, to be honest, is just not fair. I have a 20 months old nephew who means the world to me, really does. I couldn't even imagine how I would feel had he been in that classroom; I couldn't even begin to tell you how his parents would feel.
My mom once told me that a parent should never outlive her kids, and I couldn't agree more. The love one has for a child is incomparable to anything else in this world. Children do change us, they change us as people, as human beings, they make us better people, they teach us that we are no longer the priority, that they always will come first. Children are an amazing gift, and yes, I mean a gift, a true gift, and I pray for all those children out there who don't feel as if they are such. It is unfair for children to grow up unloved, however, it is sometimes those children who emerge the strongest of all. It goes back to what I said yesterday, never ever let anything define you as a person, always use the experiences you go through and your memories and define yourselves. Willpower and determination will get anyone there, trust me, I am living it now. Nothing good in life is easy and this is no exception; if you want something good, you are going to have to fight for it, just think of Black Friday! If it seems too easy, then it's probably not worth your time. We sometimes have to be stronger than any bad memory we have. We need to show ourselves who is boss. We can't let our emotions control us, as sometimes, the heart and the soul can be the greatest devil of all. We need to learn to put things in perspective, to rationalize what it is that our thoughts mean, what our feelings mean. It is during times like these, when tragedies of this magnitude happen, that we realize who those people are, that we need by our sides.
This has really showed me how much I really love my wife; I don't know what I would do if something was to happen to her; yes even when we are going through this. We need to realize that no matter how bad we think we have it, there will always be a child out there sleeping on the streets, hungry and cold; there will always be a family burying their child. We need to understand that if these children and families can get up and go about their day, we should be able to emerge from our somewhat "bad" experiences, much easier. Never forget that the mind is the greatest tool humans have. Nothing is ever too hard; if we sit down and think of all those people who are grieving the loss of their children today, we will realize that, after all, we have it pretty good. Our problems are marginal compared to what happened yesterday and these unfortunate events sometimes help us see how good we have it and how much we should try to hold on to what we have. I pray for all those families in CT and I won't say I know what they are going through, because I don't, and not many people do. But this has shown me who those people are who really matter in my life. Make sure you always tell those people in your life, "I love you"; you just never know if that will be the last time you ever talk to them.
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